me moaning

[morbid soul]

all alone on the board its kinda spooky probably because I'm in the dark typing away while the windows open, I've just finished a lovely argument with my family which is always good to have since they like to tell you the truth about how they feel and think of you. Its the anger dont blame them and maybe their right in what they say I dont know. Wondering what crap I'm babbling on about?

I always have these stupid arguments with my family their religious that’s the main root of the problem and the thing is I'm not I couldn’t care much about it and dont plan on doing so, their always going on and on about I'm going to burn in hell and die for saying things how god doesnt exist, and for those of you who do believe in the all mighty I apologise if what I write pisses you off feel free to stop reading.

I think the main reason I dont follow anything is because it was like getting beaten into things (literally beaten) I didn’t really want to pray all day and night to someone I didn’t even know existed I was only a kid back then. They think I'm stupid and need to grow up...which is always nice to hear. I couldn’t have much of a life I mean I was always told not to mix with other kids 'we have no choice but to talk to them but when your home dont keep contact or be friends with them' its bad in other words to mix with people of other religions. To this day I have to lie about who I see.

And you cant have a girlfriend no way find out your history dude! My relationship with this girl was pretty much over after they found out and told her family I was a looney who needed medication, I should take the time to mention what a nice comment they made of me there in front of the girls family, I guess this issue had other problems so I'll shut up about it now. But basically no you cant have a girlfriend, until your married off to some damn girl you dont even know and your supposed to have a life and start a family with this person? heck no! I argue these things yet I'm stupid and need to grow up that’s what I'm told....so now I put a question forward to you my readers (that sounds good like I'm a writer) am I being a jerk and need to shut up and that my family are right in what they say and believe? Or am I correct in saying some things and need to get the hell outta this place before I end up killing myself?

I trust you'll have some advice or comments to make if not I've been writing a hell lot of crap and so I shall remain silent. This is just some issues of the argument the rest is well too much to write...so I say goodnight!

[Paco]

first off the number of times that i have been told i am going to hell i lost track of at least 10 years ago. that is beside the point. "don't let the man get you down" one of my favorite quotes found to be helpful. what you believe is what is important. on this statement i might piss people off but here goes nothing: families are what we are dealt with, but friends are the lucky ones we are allowed to choose. at times the two may mix, but many of times they are kept in to different boxes. try not to stay in a bad situation. it is not worth your life, or sanity. use good judgement though. and when people tell me i am going to hell, i just remark that i already know and have got a single occupency room reserved. this usually stops the talk. but i am also known to be a smart ass.

[Rain0]

Hey Jumel,

I am so glad you decided to write, my bad that I haven't been on these days. I just want to let you know I am hearing you from here and I imagine what it must be like to be in such situation with such family. I was also taught at a young age to never mix with anyone, I wasn't allowed to bring anyone home. Some would say my parents were racists (as they are not so extremely religious, well, my mum a little), but they just thought other people lived very indifferently, while we were more spiritual orientated, like we would clean the house of negative energy each week and also shower with a special liquid for protection. There are more things we do, but I guess, since its not all based on pure affection and love, it hasn't always kept bad stuff from happening. I had a discussion about your family's religion and I find them very extreme that they would even lie to your girlfriend's family about your wellbeing. Well, you are depressed but it's not the same with being crazy which is worse.

I don't think you should pay too much attention, if you will, you will feel awful. I usually ignore everything and well, you are old enough to not have your family's agreement of who you're allowed to hang around with. I at least don't tell my mum all the details of people I meet anywhere if she's going to be mad anyway. And that God would harm you if you didn't listen, I didn't believe it and nor people who'd say we will be punished. I think those who thought they'd go to Heaven would likely end up in 'Hell', one they personally helped creating, for controlling other's lives, believing nonsense without actually studying and analyzing things first, and also for making people's lives miserable. They were the ones to be careful, as it's definitely not a sign of care at all. If they are preaching love and peace, they really had still a lot to learn.

I'm going to shop now, my mum is waiting for me. I may be on when I'm back, not sure, my bro will occupy it (PC) most likely.

*cuddle*

[morbid soul]

thank you both for your replies its just being called useless all your life whatever I achieved was never good enough for my family I'm the only one who didnt go to University so I'm the loser of the family, my little sister will be off to uni this year and well I was always told I'll end up being in a crap job if I didnt go but many people dont even have a decent job with degrees and all these masters.

I know you say ignore them but its not that easy I know you'll understand what I mean rain as I've told you a lot already about my silly life. But thank you I shall see what happens.

[ghost]

aren't you a cop or something though? (sorry, bad memory)
in what way is that loserly....??

[presh]

hey, i know what you mean. even though you know you have a worthy job, its not always enough. well i can assure you that your 'family' here thinks that is plenty good enough. honestly i don't know how you do it. and it is good to know that someone compassionate like you has that job.

*huggs*

[morbid soul]

thanks presh

[ghost]

well
it should

fuck them
your doing an important job

[Rain]

Strange how people are. In my family everyone would look up at you for the profession you're doing Jumel. My mum also has a few cousin and other relatives who are and they are being treated with respect.

[kittyclub2005]

[glow=purple,2,300]I think they are over I dunno what's the word. You're old enough to pick who you want to be friends with, a couple with, and what to believe in. They need to stop shoving their beliefs down your thorat. Supposedly, we are told to love your neighbor as you would yourself. That doesn't sound like loving them to me. I think you need to get out of there.[/glow]