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Post by Rain on Jun 17, 2005 20:33:40 GMT -5
My cuttings are reducing, simply because in no way it is helping me. It's not what you think however. I don't think I am ever satisfied with the result... and since I don't have big blades (the ones I use are tiny ones I broke out of a razor), I won't ever be able to make nice cuts that keep on oozing long enough.
If you are still doing it, how deep do you go? In the beginning, I would make long and open wounds (not so bad still) which I had to wrapp into bandages or bandaids, they end up sticking at the paper or smelling so badly... During this period I would use knives and cutters (those my brother uses at his work to cut out stuff), till somehow they got thrown away. Also by my mother who found a really big one I never used.
It's so easy to buy a cutter, it doesn't even cost a euro (and you get like several sizes in a packages) even if you want to die. Just the death would be messy... with the blood shed.
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Post by megoboom on Jun 18, 2005 14:54:37 GMT -5
yet i still like to wathc it bleed no matter how deep it isnt that easy to cut too deep sometimes but sometimes its easy
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Post by Rain on Jun 19, 2005 10:12:34 GMT -5
Yeah, when I started I was so reckless.. I never imagined to ever go deep or whatdeep was. It was just for the sight of blood. But now I am older and I know the consequences and I am more careful.
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Post by kittyclub2005 on Jun 22, 2005 16:00:17 GMT -5
Wow! I've never cut so I can't really relate.
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Post by morbid soul on Jun 30, 2005 7:36:05 GMT -5
cant really do it these days although its a killer to control, people at work ask questions I bring it on myself so I have no real excuse to complain.
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Post by Rain on Jul 1, 2005 7:25:39 GMT -5
Yes, it's important. I mean, if you value something than there are things you must or have to let go. Or you have to be smart and trick people. Not trying be a bad example here! I think I cut best when I'm really really mad.
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Post by morbid soul on Jul 1, 2005 14:22:28 GMT -5
oh but you see when your mad you do the most damage so its not so good now is it.
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Post by Paco on Jul 1, 2005 18:44:05 GMT -5
i find my self cutting the most when i am mad. this seems to be different than many people that i know most are sad, and crying. i very seldom cry.
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Post by kittyclub2005 on Jul 9, 2005 1:31:43 GMT -5
I don't really cry either.
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Post by Rain on Sept 14, 2005 4:10:03 GMT -5
I have cried a lot over the past few weeks/months. Now, I am sort of apathetical. But there comes a moment I get offended, then again the fluids starts gushing out, all over the place. I think you two have an emotional block, for being unable to cry. I also think if you ever manage to cry, it would be a lot, for having to hold so much in. Tears are a natural expression, if you can't do so, there could be something wrong. Just as being unable to smile.
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zero
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Post by zero on Nov 25, 2005 14:03:51 GMT -5
I just try hard not to cry, or convince myself it's not worth it.
But my cuts depend on why I'm cutting, if I'm just feeling numb, it usually doesn't turn out very deep. But then I get mad at myself for not being able to make a good cut and make a deep one next to it.
Quick question: Do you ever find that it's hard to make a deep enough cut over an old scar? Or maybe it was just the area on my arm that the scar was in.
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Post by kittyclub2005 on Dec 21, 2005 2:40:18 GMT -5
[glow=purple,2,300]Well, when i do cry, it is a lot. It is hard to stop myself. Then, it takes another long time to pass before I cry again.[/glow]
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Post by princess on Sept 19, 2006 11:07:23 GMT -5
I allways cry before I cut
and these days I always need atleast 10 stitches and then a load of little ones that only need glue
or steri strips
If I don't cut deep enough I will keep trying
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