Post by princess on Jun 10, 2006 13:05:02 GMT -5
look at this pretty skin on my wrist
so clear. so clean. the scars dont exist.
only pinks and purples still remain there.
but at least there are no more scabs to bare.
“keep it up!” i hear again.
“you can do it!” says my friend.
i can. i can. i will. i will.
no.. i cant.. another spill.
okay, here goes attempt number two.
this time i will be thinking of you.
because i dont want to let you down.
and i cant stand to see you frown.
ah! motivation must be the key.
cause look at this arm, its scar-free me.
yes. thats it. im finally okay.
fuck. not again! maybe i should pray.
dear god, hear me now.
im sorry for i have sinned.
please restore me, and heal me within.
please make this bad habbit go away now.
i get on my knees and i start to bow.
just grant me this favor.
and ill be a better me.
thank god! i hope this is the last try i need.
alas. once again. i slip from underneath.
this is the fourth mistake i have made bleed.
whats left to count on? whats left to hope?
exactly how am i supposed to cope?
it's self control that ive never met
that makes the strength to forgive this regret
im controling my thoughts as they pass through
and i just need to find something else to do
stay busy. stay busy.
i say to myself.
think of your friends. think of your health.
now my control has taken all of me.
and even my heart cannot disagree.
but its not self harm it wishes to inflict.
my control is suicidal- my heart cant stop it.
not mine by the way
so clear. so clean. the scars dont exist.
only pinks and purples still remain there.
but at least there are no more scabs to bare.
“keep it up!” i hear again.
“you can do it!” says my friend.
i can. i can. i will. i will.
no.. i cant.. another spill.
okay, here goes attempt number two.
this time i will be thinking of you.
because i dont want to let you down.
and i cant stand to see you frown.
ah! motivation must be the key.
cause look at this arm, its scar-free me.
yes. thats it. im finally okay.
fuck. not again! maybe i should pray.
dear god, hear me now.
im sorry for i have sinned.
please restore me, and heal me within.
please make this bad habbit go away now.
i get on my knees and i start to bow.
just grant me this favor.
and ill be a better me.
thank god! i hope this is the last try i need.
alas. once again. i slip from underneath.
this is the fourth mistake i have made bleed.
whats left to count on? whats left to hope?
exactly how am i supposed to cope?
it's self control that ive never met
that makes the strength to forgive this regret
im controling my thoughts as they pass through
and i just need to find something else to do
stay busy. stay busy.
i say to myself.
think of your friends. think of your health.
now my control has taken all of me.
and even my heart cannot disagree.
but its not self harm it wishes to inflict.
my control is suicidal- my heart cant stop it.
not mine by the way