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Post by Rain on Sept 19, 2005 8:10:09 GMT -5
I understand what you say Paco and besides if you rely on someone, they might die or something will happen to drive you apart and then of course you'd want to die. Life is more to live it for your own, individually.. Only one bad thing, I was never thought such thing but I hope with therapy I can learn to function on my own and perhaps continue a few more years untill the process of my natural death starts working through me and takes me.
EDIT: I mean taught. I need to check my spellings.
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Post by Paco on Sept 19, 2005 20:17:38 GMT -5
you know Rain i am in know way saying that i am perfect. you did not imply this, but just want you to see where i am coming from. i struggle with the same shit that you and so many others do. lately i have been on the up swing and feeling some what positive, but i just hate to see others follow the same ideas i did. i am most definately much older than you, so take it or leave it. while you have the opportunity in therapy, deal with as much as you can. from my side of the keyboard you seem like more often than not you want to live. keep the focus on you and have an excellent day.
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Post by Rain on Sept 20, 2005 4:08:31 GMT -5
I really wished I could. A friend also told me to be a bit selfish, I know I should but really, I can't. Like I said, I was never taught to become an independant human being. I do hope in therapy I will feel much better, they have just started. And I always look forward to them as that's the only moment I'm talking to a living people I can see, touch and feel about all that bothers me. If I wasn't, I'd continue to be mute at home, or have angry people around me for looking grumpy but too cocky to say a word about the things that happens inside.
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Post by |T_T| Leenie |T_T| on Sept 21, 2005 14:23:51 GMT -5
Thanks..
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zero
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Post by zero on Nov 27, 2005 22:21:55 GMT -5
I going to rate today a 25. It was 50 earlier, because I got to be with my girlfriend and stay the night at her new apartment, but I was helping her move, so her parents are really stressed out. Right now I'm at -25. I just don't know what to do. I want to talk to my friend, but I can't. I hate burdening people with my problems. I know, I'm being a hypocrit by writing this, but anyone here can choose to ignore it.
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Post by kittyclub2005 on Dec 21, 2005 3:29:43 GMT -5
[glow=purple,2,300]I am feeling ok.[/glow]
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Post by princess on Sept 22, 2006 6:49:59 GMT -5
I feel like crap but there is a glimpse of hapiness
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Post by morbid soul on Sept 22, 2006 14:08:48 GMT -5
happiness? is there like such a thing??
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Post by princess on Sept 23, 2006 9:30:11 GMT -5
either that or the light at the end of my tunnel really is an oncoming train
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Twisted
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Post by Twisted on Sept 24, 2006 15:06:00 GMT -5
Two nights ago I really thought I was going to do something big but I stoped myself by druging up on calmers. Yesterday was hell I can't really take much more. Today I'm doing better but am still only about a 0
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Post by morbid soul on Sept 25, 2006 6:25:04 GMT -5
get on to british rail jen I'm sure they'll sort it, Twisted hope your doing ok try keep yourself busy at times it helps when you just want to get the fuck out of this shit world
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Post by princess on Sept 30, 2006 9:25:58 GMT -5
Whenever I feel depressed about things I listen to this song its called scars and its by papa roach it really helps me for some reason
maybe you could find a song that means something to you not a depressing one though coz that will make you harm or attempt s
anyway here it is
chorus: I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut My weakness is that I care too much My scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain And I can't help to fix myself Your making me insane All I can say is
chorus
I tried to help you once A kiss will only vise I saw you going down But you never realized That your drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassions in my nature Tonight is our last dance
chorus
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone You shouldn't ever came around Why don't you just go home? Cause your drowning in the water And I tried to grab your hand And I left my heart open But you didn't understand But you didn't understand You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
chorus x2
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Post by Freakofftheleash on Oct 16, 2006 19:32:02 GMT -5
I feel apathetic most of the time, i think that came with age. I miss rain tho...
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Post by princess on Oct 21, 2006 10:43:51 GMT -5
yeah me too
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Post by kittyclub2005 on Nov 2, 2006 2:30:17 GMT -5
I miss her, too. She was so deep and inspiring. I get sad when I think about her. My life has been real shitty lately (sorry for the bad language, but it's the truth).
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