Today..

[Rain]

How do you feel your life looks like today, now you also have a mark of what happened in the past from whatever kind of abuses you went through?

As you could've read in my previous post, the past made it possible for me not to mix well with the other gender. I hardly feel comfortable when I talk to someone. When they smile at me, I think they have bad intentions or they are just making fun of me. On the Net I have some male friends which is cool but they are never there forever. Many of them disappeared into cyberspace, so much for friendship.

Well, today I suck at having a nice conversation with guys and I am quite ashamed of being made of flesh.

[kittyclub2005]

I have the very same problem. Although I am able to talk to men, I do not trust them in the least and I always observe them in case their intentions are bad. Usually, I'll say hi or whatever when they say hi to me (so as not to be rude), but once they start with the whole "where do you live?" bullshit, the conversation is over. Or "let's hang out". I don't know them well enough to be around them the same day or give them a phone number. There's no way.

[Rain]

I would be polite, I try to be and would answer them. If they would ask me for a number or my name I always give them a wrong one. You can't trust strangers, you've never met them before.

[presh]

yeah, i get very suspicious if some guy comes up and talks to me (rare that it is) ...i just want them to go away and let me mind my own business.
i can though warm up to people...it takes a while though, but at least there is the possibility of comfort

[morbid soul]

sorry if I'm intruding but best thing to do is Taser the perv in the nuts that would soon change their minds.

[megoboom]

lol hahah anyway ya it took me awhile to trust guys again after my first ever boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend (no longer my friend may she die a horrible horrible death hehe) anyway ya if one comes into my life (like Mike) it take awhile to trust him but i did so here we are i wouldnt trust em all though

[Rain]

You're so lucky, there aren't many people like Mike out there. Or maybe they are incredibly shy.

[megoboom]

quite possibly i think it best to go out there if ya feel comfortable and say hi to people if ya can and also be careful for those 'freaks'

[Rain]

I do that... I can act impulsively if that's what you mean but, I always get scared of the image people form of me.. which isn't always a good one.

[kittyclub2005]

Also, a smile. If they smile at you, smile back and keep walking. Not all people are bad but it's always good to be careful.

[Rain]

lol Maybe that smile is an inner grin of what kind of an idiot I am! I usually try to offer a (forced) smile. When a guy smiles at me, I feel pretty warm and confused. I did meet this really sweet guy once on the street, I was shopping and he wanted to offer me help, as we experienced a few difficulties on our way (I was with my mum). I thought I was in love, I continued seeing him a few more times and all the times I hid or tried to be air. Untill.... I saw him with a child! Grrr.. I've never been so sad.

[kittyclub2005]

Saw him with a child? His child?