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Post by ellahatesherhate on Jun 10, 2008 13:31:32 GMT -5
How much do you usually cut, like how many times per 'session'? how many times a day? and why that amount of times? how much blood? how many times have you tried to stop? how many times have you started over again? wishing you'd die when you did it but not intending? suicide attempts? friends that cut? times you wished you didn't cut? if you keep track, how many times total? how many times have you been caught doing it?
just some questions...
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Post by princess on Jul 10, 2008 11:56:22 GMT -5
It depends when I get the feeling of suffocation sometimes it cant be daily... other times I can go a month or two with out it when I cut I keep doing it until I can breathe again I lose alot of blood each time I have had blood pumped back into me on alot of occasions I try to stop every day... Every time after I have done it and every time I am bitting open a razor praying for the strength to crack it open I need stitches every time I self harm but I hate hospitals so I stole a load of hospital equipment last time I was up there and I do the stitches myself now I have started again too many times... I can quit for a month tops and then it's like I black out and I cut without knowing it Every time I get new cuts on my arm I wish I could just fade away or end it for good I hate scars and I hate that I have to wear jumpers in summer and when you finally get the confidence to wear long sleeves some critical bastard will stare or make a horrible comment! suicide attempts - lost count friends that cut - about 3... I don't like to be defined by self harm so I hang out with people that don't do it and I cover my scars I wish every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year that I had never self harmed and that I never would It would be impossible to count the times I have self harmed as I started about 13 years ago I have never been caught doing it... it is a private thing and when I do it I make sure no one else is around sometimes though when my memory blacks out and I self harm there is a high risk of self harm because I don't know that I'm doing it!
I hope that answers everything!!!
The last time I self harmed was 19th June 2008 21 days and counting
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