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Post by Rain on Jun 12, 2005 16:24:38 GMT -5
I don't burn myself. The other sorts of self-abuse I go through are starvation and eating. When I am sad I turn to food, chocolates are my favorite consolation. I can buy a bag with 20 mini chocolate bars in it and eat it all up that same day, and feel extremely sick unable to eat anything else. Only one thing I don't do is throwing up. I eat to later starve myself. I strive to be as thin as I can be. I care about numbers and my motto these days is: skinny is pretty
Further, I also abuse on medication, not so badly. Just once it got out of hand and I felt extremely sick, that's when I used laxative.
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Post by kittyclub2005 on Jun 12, 2005 17:44:59 GMT -5
I can't eat too much sweets cus I get sick. I'm feeling real nauseus right now and nobody in my house is helping me. They're a bunch of cruel people.
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Post by Rain on Jun 13, 2005 0:38:06 GMT -5
That's terrible kitty, does it come due your pregnancy? That could a motive. I asked my mum a lot of questions of the times she was pregnant with me and she often had to spit something out, due nausea. Like a water or something. I wish you wake up better today and not as sick as you're now. I also wished you were in better environment, you would stress less and it would do you well.
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Post by megoboom on Jun 13, 2005 15:07:57 GMT -5
could be morning sickness maybe anyway answering the topic i have burned i pick scabs all the time hhmm and other things pinching scratching etc
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Post by Rain on Jun 14, 2005 1:58:58 GMT -5
It's nice to see what else you guys do but I've never really burnt, scratched myself. Burning would make me feel nauseous, just the smell.
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Post by Paco on Jun 14, 2005 2:36:40 GMT -5
First off chocolate "yuck" secondly that is somewhat troubling the comment by you Rain on the number issue. our society, world in majority is so f@#$*d up about weight. it is not right; although i won't disagree with you as i tend to try to do the same. play it safe.
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Post by Rain on Jun 14, 2005 2:56:11 GMT -5
I don't necesarily starve myself to be pretty but it's a motto to make myself proceed with doing what I do. I am a very tall and all my relatives and friends are usually smaller than me. They perceive me as a big statue for this reason. Though I do not weigh -and never have either- a lot to make me 'fat', these comments made by my friends and family are driving me to madness. I want to be skinny, even if all I will see is just bones. I strive to weigh around 55 kgs but not less than 50. Then, I will have achieved something. Happiness and that I am not big.
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Post by Paco on Jun 14, 2005 3:04:26 GMT -5
sorry but i am a bit sensitive a friend of mine was anorexic and i believe she died of it at age 26. skechy details because my memory from then is not good.  |
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Post by Rain on Jun 14, 2005 3:27:02 GMT -5
I'm really sorry to hear that... I think that people with eating disorders usually got many comments/remarks on their weight or indirectly, for example. Which is in my case. But I won't let it come so far that it would be my death... In my opinion I will be able to control it.
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Post by presh on Jun 14, 2005 6:41:18 GMT -5
please be careful rain.
my aunt too is anorexic, though nobody talks about it. she always seems to just be on the borderline, but now her stomach is so fragile that she can hardly eat anything now...her body can't take it.
honestly, i believe if you eat what you want, what your body is craving, you will enjoy the food and then be satisfied. but at the same time, all in moderation. remember you can be skinny, but not necessarily be healthy. i know we've talked about this somewhere before. i just want you to take care of yourself.
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Post by Rain on Jun 14, 2005 13:06:34 GMT -5
I know, thanks for caring about me. I do eat, everyday, my mum makes sure I do. She makes me feel very guilty if I throw her food and dinner away, so I am always forcing myself to eat everything up... And it's not really extreme (yet), I still have some flesh over the bones. I just want to make it a bit less...
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Post by megoboom on Jun 18, 2005 14:53:17 GMT -5
yes yes this issue is def a kinda gotta be careful one so i say def just take care or your bodies (aint i being hypocritical)
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Post by kittyclub2005 on Jun 19, 2005 18:09:35 GMT -5
I don't starve myself (although I know some people think I do, don't ask me why), I can't handle not eating. I wish to gain weight, not lose it. It's just that sometimes, I get so busy, I forget to eat and then my hunger disappears.
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Post by presh on Jun 20, 2005 1:29:50 GMT -5
i get like that sometimes too kitty. its funny but i do forget to eat lunch or dinner sometimes....its funny to hear someone else say the same thing.
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Post by Rain on Jul 1, 2005 7:42:59 GMT -5
I do that also. Well, during school, when I had duties. Now I have someone who makes sure I eat.. I am trying to starve myself today again. It's 2pm, I can't resist the tempting idea of having food... I went out and saw chocolates I wanted to buy, I just can't. I need to be thin (I am obsessed). So, I'm telling my mum I already ate in the morning (what is a lie) and now I also don't want to eat dinner, so she's in a fight with me right now... sort of. But she won't get me to eat, I just can't. Maybe Sunday or something. Or tomorrow..
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